Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Please … just don’t ask.



The last leg of my Korean journey is coming to a close. The emotions are more than I could ever express in words, but I’ll give it a try …

frustration …

excitement …

confusion …

anticipation …

disappointment …

anger …

regret …

loss …

sorrow …

grief …

resignation …

numbness.

These are my initial feelings in the moment, but I anticipate more feelings once my feet touch US soil. I am processing. I ask friends and family to be tender with me.

Please do not ask me about the search. If you want to know about my trip, ask me about the food, the toilets, the people, my run-in with a young woman who believed Baby Boxes were a good thing and G.O.A.’L.

The one feeling I am very happy to express is my extreme gratitude to Global Overseas Adoptees’ Link (G.O.A.’L.). After years of being told I should be grateful, I do not freely extend that feeling of gratitude to anyone or any organization. But in this instance, G.O.A.’L. has more than supported me through all these emotions.

Thank you, G.O.A.’L.





2 comments:

mothermade said...

I came across a little tiny blue folder stashed in some cabinet in my garage. I was being nosey and went looking through it and found that it has my mom’s birth certificate. I was curious to know if the guy that signed her birth was important and googled his name. Your blog popped up and I had to share the similarities. Her birth was also recorded in December 1968, on the 23rd. I guess that would be when her life really just started too. My mom came to America with her American dad and Korean mom after the war. Four years later, her father walked out on my grandma who still was learning the “American” way. These two women are the most important things to me, and you have quite a few things in common, so I wish you well!

mothermade said...

Tylar, I feel honored to be linked to two wonderful women in your life. Thanks for commenting.